Sorrowful-Hope

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Feel so down lately

Recently i been feeling all alone in this world .....
I wanna scream .....
I wanna cry .....

Guess tonight is those nights that i feel super sensitive and depressed ......

But hey, who really cares .....
Most don't really know how i feel nor truely understand me ......

I feel that others are so lucky, at least they get a friend to care for them when they need, me ..... But for me, i dunno lar ..... I know that they care just i cant feel it .....

Maybe 1 problem is that i have a problem expressing myself, so most of they things are kept to myself .....

Haha, sometimes i wish i was a girl, so that i can lend on a guy's shoulder to cry or request a hug from someone ..... But hey i'm a guy, i hate it sometimes ..... Maybe u should become those who walk on the road with girl clothes, JKJK, haha ..... Disgusting .....

I hate being a guy that i am .....
Care too much about others, and dun expect anything in return .....
Softhearted towards girls ......
So Weak !! ......
But are these even the points where people like me ? .....

my sad world. 10:51 PM

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Jeremy's amazing journey ..... To a Wedding

Let me tell You a story about a humble little boy that enbarked on a journey so great no Jeremy Chan Yan De has ever gone .....

On a Sunday morning he got out of his bed as early as he could around 8am, and messaged his Sentosa GirlFriend whether she would be going to a wedding later in the afternoon ..... Well the wedding is for 1 of their co-worker, Norlin .....

However as sad as it was ..... He had to embark on this great journey alone as his parthner was too exhausted to go due to "Sentosa's Plan To Overwork Their Manpower" ..... Just joking .....

He sat out on his great adventure with only his PSP and handphone ..... Nothing more and Nothing less ....

He boarded the train from Tampines ......

Tampines >>>>>> Pasir Ris

Pasir Ris >>>>>>> Jurong East

Jurong East >>>>> Bukit Gombak

Eached Bukit Gombak ..... He realised he went into a different world that he came from ..... He was now lost, Actually not quite, He found a map and found the direction within 2Min ......

The place of the wedding was:

Blk 383A

Bukit Batok west Ave 5

Muti-purpose hall

Well, got to admit ..... The wedding was crowded, expected from such a fun co-worker ...... While waiting for my other co-worker, i keep seeing people come and go ..... MAYBE IN THE MILLIONS !!!! ...... I'm over reacting ...... Haha .....

WOW , NAZ WAS THERE !!!!!! Miss her so much ......

Food looks great so me and auntie Rohaidah and her husband went to makan first ...... The food was generally ok, however the presentation was great .....

Finally near 2 , Norlin finally appeared ......

Soon after her husband appeared ...... Well, the husband must give her green packet to be allowed to see her ......

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The fan covering her face will only be removed when they are satisfied with the amount that the male has given them ...... Norlin too soft hearted, only asked for 2-3 green packet ...... Ask untill her heart pain what ......

Finally shaked her hand, Had to fight with so many other people .....
Anyways her husband's face never smiled for the time i was there ...... So serious for wat, your wedding leh uncle ...... Haha .....
Naz said, he is the king for today ..... king need to be serious ..... Haha so joke.....

After that, the boring journey back home began ......

my sad world. 11:49 PM

Today the 15th june is father's day ...... But we celebrated yesterday, because my brother had guard duty today ..... Awww sad ......

Anyways ...... we went to some high class restaurant at meritus-mandarin hotel in orchard road ..... Its called triple 3 .....

WOW ...... No wonder its so expensive ..... Everyone is served with a lobster for appetizer ..... Looks good but i do not really fancy these food .....

Next i started on desert ...... Waha ..... Sorry i abit wield ..... Cause i wasn't that hungry ...... Anyways the CHOCOLATE ROX ..... Can make u faint sia ...... SO GOOD .....

Finally , when everyone was almost full , I shouted "come lets start the main course" ..... haha ..... Joker .....

On this day, although alot of fathers say don't need be so special ...... or do not need to celebrate ..... I believe that we should celebrate this special day for them , because this day reminds us how special our father is to us ..... Do not take your fathers for granted ......

my sad world. 12:21 AM

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Questions ? Quiz ?

Tagged by : Jane

Rules & regulation of this quiz is...

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were taggedby & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Q: If your Lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?

As i told someone preccious to me before, i'll let her go with the other guy but always be right by her side and will reappear whenever i'm needed ..... I know it hurts but, Oh Well, she is my lover after all right ???

Q: If you can have a Dream to come true, what would it be?

1. Getting my finanical freedom by the 20's .....
2. PERSONAL , not going to say ..... can ma ? if cannot then i change
3. Get a house new Bedok reservior ..... LOVE THE RESERVIOR

Q: What will your dream wedding to be like?

Either at the reservior or at sentosa .....
Reservior because i love it there .....
Sentosa i got alot of my friends ..... ^^ but dunno by then they still there working ma
But i know i'll hold the girl tight, cause i really dun wan loose her .....
Anyways i'll just let the girl decide, i not really that particular about all these tings, Being happy always will be more important .....

Q: Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?

Not really, i believe that i know what i wan already ..... I'll tackle things that are in the present not in the future ....

Q: What's your ideal lover like?

Kind ....

Sweet ....

Caring .....

Cute .....

Fun to be with .....

Loves me alot .....

Dun be selfish .....

Dun be too chldish .....

More , but i cant tink off .....

Q: Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone?

I would agree with jane that the most blessed is being loved both ways ..... It will be either sad or irritating if its 1 way .....

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

I'll give my life to the person .... Guess that answered the question .....

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached , what would you do?

What can i do ? Wait Lol, Nothing much .....
Wouldnt let the girls know either as i do not want to be the cause of them to break up, I HATE BREAKUPS ......
But i'll always be taking care of her in the shadows .....

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?

YES !!!
Girls are my problem ..... Been really easy irritated by them , i do not know why .....
Also i got a serious weak spot for girls ..... Dammit lar

Q: Is being tagged fun?

Erm .... The feeling is neutral ..... Tag then Tag LOL .....

Q: How do you see yourself in ten years time?

2 years time, Guarduate from poly

4 years time, finish my NS

6 years ???? Hopefully university ????

8 Years time ????? Still in University ????

10 years time ????? Only Heaven knows

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?

1. Friends

2. Close Friends

3. Best friends

4. HAXI ..... Girls, most of mt friends are girls .....

Q: What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Hmmm ...... CUTE !!!!!! If not that would be super boring ..... Agreed ?
Other then that i dun wan say le ...... WAHA

Q: Would you rather to be a single & rich or married but poor?

Single and rich ...... Then i'll find a good wife and settle down ......
Is there an option of handsome or ugly ? I WANNA BE HANDSOME INSTEAD ......
Ugly then no girl wan, SAD .....

Q: What's the first thing you do every morning?

Stare blankly at the surroundings ? Then see my Handphone .....

Q: Would you give all in a relationship?

Hmmm actually i'm the type to give it all ..... Whats the point of going into a relationship without a whole heart, if so don't go in at all ......

Q: If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?

Hmmm depends who is the person ...... I kind of priories people .... So depends whether the girls means more or lesser .....

Q: What type of friends do you like?

EVERYONE , except WIELD PEOPLE ...... LIKE SCARY GIRL ......

Q: Do you have a pet?

Nope ..... I had fish and dog before though ..... Dunno why now i abit dun like to touch them..... Attitude problem ..... haha

Q: What type of friends do you dislike?

Irritating .....
Always feel like i being used by them ......
Talk bad about me ....
Hate me .....

8 person that i'm tagging(Some other time)...
1. Joy
2.Yin Yin
3.Gary
4.Joanna
5.Fizzah
6.Martin
7.Farhan
8.Rachel

my sad world. 9:52 AM

Friday, June 6, 2008

Woot Exam over .... A Mistry?

Firstly, I wanna shout.....
EXAMS ARE OVER !!!!!
Also .....
YESH !!! I GOT INTO BANKING AND FINANCE !!!!

Anyways been chionging studies lately, sorry to all those who asked me out but i didnt make it ....

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Messy right ? But study till quite late so got no time to pack .... Too Lazy ..... HAHA

Also through this exam period i keep realising someting fishy ..... I usually drink a bottle of water while i study, and usually drink finish or at least half ...... But when i awaken , I stare at my bottle and WOW!! ITS FULL !! ......

I do not know whether its my mother or my grandmother ..... But i also do not think its them who refilled it ..... My mother is quite of a heavy sleeper, and i usually sleep after her ..... And for my grandmother she told me she was not the one, and said most likely i forgot to drink .....

Well isit true ? or isit my secret Guardian angel is the one who is taking care of me ..... Who ever did it , THANKS i appricate !! LOVE YOU .....

HAHA ..... my sister and mother made COOKIES ..... SO NICE .....

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my sad world. 8:57 PM

Blog Introduction
"Sorrowful Hope"
Do you feel that hope is sorrowful ? Well i do

Hope is a cheerful feeling to have I have to admit myself . But hope turns dark when we are grasping on to something that cannot happen or that is impossible .

In some point in our life , we will aim for something we cannot get . It maybe small or big , simple or complex .

People always say that we can loose everything but hope . Once hope is lost , the battle has lost < means everything we worked so hard for and that future is gone >

But is hope really that worth , especially when we cannot obtain it ? Or should it be given up ?

True Feelings
I'm a faithful and loyal guy ....
However if u did sth wrong,
I'LL remember it 4EVA

AIMS in my life
1. I not going to be EMO no more !! (Partly Achieved)

2. I'm going to be the best friend to my friends !! (Forever A Task)

3. Live By this quote : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

4. Lose weight

5. Know what i want in life, Occupation?

~~6. GPA at least a 3 at the end of poly life (possible but hard)~~ IMPOSSIBLE

7. Read Newspaper everyday?
^-^

Me
Gener : Male
DOB : 15th December 1989
Status : Single
Country : Singapore ( SG )
Primary School : SHPS
Secondary School : SHSS
Teritary Education : TP

Likes :
Cool N Windy Places
Going Out With Frens
Slacking
Playing Games
LOVES Piano Songs ^^

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BackStabers / Liers
Getting Caught In The Middle
Ppl Who Nv Reply Msges
Ppl Who PS, Without Reason
Ppl That Use Others

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Full Moon Wo Sagashite
DN Angel
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Asatte No Houkou
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Shaman King
Pita Ten
My Wife is a High School Girl
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Otogi Jushi Akazukin TV
Tokimeki Memorial ~Only Love~
Karin
Kamichama Karin
Hayate no Gotoku!
Rozen Maiden & Rozen Maiden Traumend
Maburaho
Love Hina
Makai Senki Disgaea
Ai Yori Aoshi
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Shinigami no Ballad
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