Sorrowful-Hope

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Jeremy as of now ....

Now i working at 2 places , 1 sentosa , 1 Adam Khoo .....
Sentosa as ticketing for the admission opts .....
Adam Khoo as Admin, preparation and registrations for his events ......
Well, i want to work as much as i can ......

After the talk by adam khoo ..... I fanially know what to do with my life ...... I'm going to work hard and be an accountant ..... I'm not going to be tied down to anything ......

From now onwards, i shall be happy and positive ...... or try ba .....

I dunno whats your problem, but i know that you are going through some hard times, that why i wanna be there for u ..... Because i know i wouldnt like to go through hard times alone ...... also please do not talk about yourself as insignificant because i know how painful it feels, cos i've been feeling that for so many years already , it sucks .....

my sad world. 11:42 AM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

what do i want ?

I feel really SUCK now .....

I think its been 3+ years since the time i broke up ..... Haven had another since .....
Actually, i didnt give others a chance, thats what brandon told me, although there are other girls that got close to me .....
Brandon told me, my problem is too FAITHFUL, do u not agree with me ?
Isit true that people like me are going to extint, if so maybe i should make them extinct, because i would never want others to feel what i had felt .....

Have you ever felt:
That the future is not in your hands, that you tried your best but yet the other party just treats you like cold ?
That you are willing to do so much for the other party but they just do not appricate it ......
If you did feel before, it sucks right ?

I thought about it, my greatest mistake so far is letting her go ..... But what to do now ..... its already happened .....

From so long ago, people been telling me she is not worth and that i should just move on ..... People that doesnt know her, People that are friends with her, People that do not like her ..... I wondered why i didnt listen to them ...... But recently i found the reason, because in my heart she is ranked most percious, maybe because i felt that she cares or cared the most for me in my entire life ...... Not my parents , not my friends, but her ......

This feeling sucks, always she comes back to me but leave me for always the same another guy ..... *sigh* ..... I know his a good guy, Much better then me in all, do you not agree ? Well i think his as precious to her as she is to me ...... Well wish you all the best if they start again .....

People told me from their point of view that:
She is using you as a replacement.....
She is after your money .....
Etc .....
I never believed them, but if this is true ..... Please do not find me again ......

Well, if you want or need me , i'll always watching over you ..... Call my name and i'll be there .....

my sad world. 10:35 AM

Yesterday, me and alan went to some registration work ...... We wore formal and made a joke when we were tiring our ties , something was wrong with our ties ..... After that we prepared the event area , carring chairs putting stationery etc .....

Later on we waited for people who are interested in some Forex course to arrive ..... Forex is the exchanging of foregin currencies to earn profits .....

Haha ..... Such a slack day, we earned $33 .....

my sad world. 10:30 AM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

ARGH, results sux .... B'days, haxi

Argh this sem's results just came out .....

Accounts = B+
Business Statistics = B+
Macroeconomics = B
Oganizational Behaviour = C
Marketing = D+
Psychology = D+

GPA = 2.76

I hate Birthdays ...... No apparent reasons, cos seldom anyone remembers mine, i know its selfish to say that ..... Partly because my B'day always falls on the school holiday ......

Its like i keep getting presents for people, its just i have never recieved anything for my B'day from my friends ..... Like nothing ever happens on my B'day for me, No cake, No presents, No company, No nothing ..... Its sad ......

Anyways Sorry wor jane, for getting you something that would not surprise you, because i believe in getting something that others would want or like rather then something they "might like" I dun think i like to risk that the person would not like it .....

Haxi, so far now, there are 2 times when i bought a cake for someone that i didnt enjoy or celebrate with them ......

I know whats on your mind, and i think i lost ..... Agreed ?

Just i dunno what i'm doing anymore, i keep loosing faith and hope although you personally told me not to loss hope ......

Could you just tell me where i stand ?

my sad world. 11:21 PM

Sunday, March 9, 2008

I've been at home for 2 days .... Feels Frustrating

Somehow along my live .... I've changed, when i was small i used to like staying at home and i wouldn't find it boring to stay at home ..... Now i cant stand being at home, do not know why , but i feel meaningless staying at home ...... This is one of the reasons why i keep going out till so late and i try to go out as often as i can .....

I think now, i feel my parents are controlling me or rather trying to control me, i hate this feeling ...... I rather be "friends" with them then this hierarchy ......

Well another reason is i got my own duties to take care off ...... Somehow i feel i want my own life, with noone controlling me ..... I really want to tell my parents "trust me, i would not do anything wrong" but they still feel they know whats best for me ..... *sigh*

Sorry, i sighed again .....

my sad world. 4:40 PM

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Is care so hard to ask ?

Yesterday night, i could accompany jane to some entrepeurship talk ...... Because the pervious day, me and jane went to pasir ris to find her handphone pouch that she misplaced on bus 21 while going home ..... So i was grounded by my mother .....

Then after the talk, she went to watch a mid night movie ...... I wanted to go there and send her home, but my mother haven slp, so i went to ask her whether i could go and send her home ..... Well in the end i got scolded and etc .....

My parents been making alot of noise after the "terrorist escape", Hmph, care more about the terrorist then me ...... WTH ..... Say cannot go out cause the terrorist is still at large, stupid excuse!! ..... Then when i asked them they told me that there was something wrong with jane , said why her parents do not go and pick her up etc etc .....

Then i sought off fight with my mother ..... Then went to my kitchen and thought about things ..... I felt for so long that my parents do care about me, that they prefered my sister or brother better ..... Always my friends are all Devils and that my bro's friends are all sweet angels .....

Long time never cried, when i woke up my eyes were so sore .....

Its like i feel, letting a girl go home alone is not at all acceptable, just they do not understand .....

Sorry jane that i could not send you home .....

Just i cant find my meaning in this earth ..... I think even if i left, noone will miss me or even care ..... Do u not agree ?

my sad world. 9:39 PM

Blog Introduction
"Sorrowful Hope"
Do you feel that hope is sorrowful ? Well i do

Hope is a cheerful feeling to have I have to admit myself . But hope turns dark when we are grasping on to something that cannot happen or that is impossible .

In some point in our life , we will aim for something we cannot get . It maybe small or big , simple or complex .

People always say that we can loose everything but hope . Once hope is lost , the battle has lost < means everything we worked so hard for and that future is gone >

But is hope really that worth , especially when we cannot obtain it ? Or should it be given up ?

True Feelings
I'm a faithful and loyal guy ....
However if u did sth wrong,
I'LL remember it 4EVA

AIMS in my life
1. I not going to be EMO no more !! (Partly Achieved)

2. I'm going to be the best friend to my friends !! (Forever A Task)

3. Live By this quote : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

4. Lose weight

5. Know what i want in life, Occupation?

~~6. GPA at least a 3 at the end of poly life (possible but hard)~~ IMPOSSIBLE

7. Read Newspaper everyday?
^-^

Me
Gener : Male
DOB : 15th December 1989
Status : Single
Country : Singapore ( SG )
Primary School : SHPS
Secondary School : SHSS
Teritary Education : TP

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