Sorrowful-Hope

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I'm dead

This is the last day of the study week ....
I'm not even close to done with my revision .... This is highly unlikely of me ....

Well, recently i cant concentrate, reason not yet known ......
Also i been feeling lonely and sad, reason also not known ......
Finally i cant stand being at home, but i always go astray when i'm outside ......

So for this exams , GG lar ....

my sad world. 9:32 AM

Friday, February 15, 2008

Happy Valentime's Day

Wow, 1st time i bought a bouquet ..... I had a bad headache for 1 week whether to buy it or not ..... I couldnt make up my mind untill on the day before, when my friend Gary told me "If you feel its a waste of money, then everything is a waste of money" , well thanks ..... But after i bought it i feel really reliefed ..... Before i bought i was thinking whether she would like it, but after i bought i keep seeing her smiling in my mind .....
So my advice to others " Do not hesitate too much about things" .....

Bouquet i bought .... Nice?

Gary's Bouquet ..... Nice right ?

On valentine's day ....

On the day itself, i went to her house in the morning to give her ..... Well i found that i passed the flowers to her not nicely ..... Its like i dumpen the flower's beautiness ..... I pass her in a plastic bag !!!! WTF

Thanks Jane ....

After i went to school, i went home and waited for her call for dinner ...... We went to bedok blk85 there to eat with johanthan and jia yi ..... WTF, i ate 4 meals !! 8am , 11am , 5pm , 10pm ...... then send her home ..... At her house door, I requested to present to her another time ..... Well not that good cause i shy shy ..... haha ..... Not going tell what i did ......

Good enough to go out wit gal ma brandon ?

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone .....
Jane , i forgot to say "Oyashimi" ......

my sad world. 7:42 AM

Monday, February 11, 2008

Is life fair ?

Have you ever thought to yourself, "why is life so unfair?"
When others win something , and you lost although you did your best .....
Or when guilt takes over , when you did something wrong and others got the blame .....
I can garenty that all of us have asked ourselves this question before .....

From the book " the five people you meet in heaven"
Do you think that life is fair ? According to this book it isn't .....
In this book, the main character dashed across the road to get something and he accidentally caused the life of the driver of a car ..... He questioned whether it was fair , that the other driver gave his life for his .....

Well in cases life is never fair .....
Well, if life was ..... "Good" people will never die , or they will have all the good luck .....
This really is not the case right ?!

Although people might think that my life is so great .... Good family , No money issues ..... Well , i admit my family is great ..... but the feelings and emotion in my heart is really stings ......

Well, i might never know whether i'll be here tomorrow , so i'll say this now .....

Sorry parents, for making you worry often ..... Because i came home late and that made them worry alot ..... The past few weeks, i'll worried alot and thus i now know who hurtful worry is ..... Well i wanted to say many times "I wun do anything stupid, i'll just talking care of someone special to me"

Sorry friends, i love to disturb people ..... Maybe its to cover up my unhappy heart ..... I know i shouldnt disturb you all, and maybe sometimes i over did it .....

Sorry jane ..... I've never been there for you when you really needed me ..... Sometimes i misunderstood ur actions ...... Sorry sometimes i "emo" for no good reasons, just to attract your attention ...... Sorry that i cant protect you ..... Sorry that i loved you in a more matured way thus there was little surprise for you ..... I've been a pain to take care ......

This is only a fraction of the things i've done ..... And it already seems bad enough ..... I'm sure i'll be punished for my sins .....

But if i died the next day ..... The person i've let down the most is my ex ...... If i got 5 mins with her, i'll say :
"I have never regretted knowing you and being together with you"
"You take care of me the best and i'll never forget"
"As i promised i'll watch over you always"

my sad world. 12:19 AM

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Mission :Sneaking out (success)

Today , 3th Feb ...... I was worried sick at home , because jane was working till like 2AM ...... So i sneaked out of my house and send her home ..... Below is my walk-thru map ......

Red = To Jane's Work Place

Green = To her House

Blue = Back Home

I never thought i would be able to pull it off ..... But hey i did ..... Haha

Now i shall talk about my remarkable escape ......

Step 1 : Slowly open the house door, minimise the sound ....

Step 2 : Lock the gate instead of the door , so there is no unnecessary sound ......

Step 3 : Climb the back gate of your house, if have .....

Lessons learnt, Never go to the reservior at 2Am, its super spooky ...... But at the end of the day, make sure its for a person most important .....

my sad world. 6:21 PM

Wed, the 30th of january, I got a presentation for Oganizational Behaviour ...... Presentation as OK , but our role play is like "made it up as go" ......
We were to dress as our role play, for me i was a bully ...... Well, i guess i was the victim, cos the nerdy boy i was to bully , did an unexpected twist that neither I nor anyone else knew ...... The nerdy boy decided to wack me , VIOLENT BOY ...... haha

See how i dressed ? Do i look like a bully ?

Wow, tamp flooded on friday, 1st of feb ...... The water level outside of SHSS, was like above the walkway ...... 1st time i seen in my whole school life ...... People that crossed the road were like in a baby pool ..... The storm was that bad, i'm not blowing up the scene ......

Poor car, taken at 2 plus PM in SHSS

my sad world. 12:41 AM

Blog Introduction
"Sorrowful Hope"
Do you feel that hope is sorrowful ? Well i do

Hope is a cheerful feeling to have I have to admit myself . But hope turns dark when we are grasping on to something that cannot happen or that is impossible .

In some point in our life , we will aim for something we cannot get . It maybe small or big , simple or complex .

People always say that we can loose everything but hope . Once hope is lost , the battle has lost < means everything we worked so hard for and that future is gone >

But is hope really that worth , especially when we cannot obtain it ? Or should it be given up ?

True Feelings
I'm a faithful and loyal guy ....
However if u did sth wrong,
I'LL remember it 4EVA

AIMS in my life
1. I not going to be EMO no more !! (Partly Achieved)

2. I'm going to be the best friend to my friends !! (Forever A Task)

3. Live By this quote : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

4. Lose weight

5. Know what i want in life, Occupation?

~~6. GPA at least a 3 at the end of poly life (possible but hard)~~ IMPOSSIBLE

7. Read Newspaper everyday?
^-^

Me
Gener : Male
DOB : 15th December 1989
Status : Single
Country : Singapore ( SG )
Primary School : SHPS
Secondary School : SHSS
Teritary Education : TP

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