Sorrowful-Hope

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I'M DOING FINE !!!! SO DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME !!!!!

Whats wrong with me ?

Why are my family so worried that i'll be made use off by my friends ?
I know i'm kind and gentle , but that doesn't mean i'm so weak to give in to my firends ..... Just because i went gym these few mornings , they think someone is blackmailing me .....

Why only me ? And not my brother and sister too ?
Isit because i'm from 'NA' stream ?

Too them i'm like the worse child of them ..... Or so i feel .....
Sigh , so my friends are all the worse ? Guess to my parents they are .....

I'M DOING FINE !!!! SO DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME !!!!!

my sad world. 10:05 AM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

We finally TP students

Been busy the past few days with my orientation .....

I admit that at 1st i found that the orientation was lame , due to the fact that i went to have a seak peep at the applied science's orientation ..... And due to that impatient action of mine ..... But i had to admit that our BUSINESS school's orientation was much more interesting than i my i 1st impression .....

The 1st day , we learnt all the different cheers and saw the school ..... Partly because the didnt want us to get lost on the 1st day of school ..... Haha ..... Just a guess ..... But the 1st day was fun , as we learnt a TP mass dance , its basically a couple dance ..... Haha ..... I really enjoyed myself with the dance , same with my partner .....

Yesterday , we had our inter-school freshman games ..... BUSINESS SCHOOL WON AGAIN , for the 3rd time .....

But after yesterday , we are offically TP students ..... Due to the fact that we finally got our student pass , well not an ezlink but more like an indentification card .....

my sad world. 1:14 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Why did you change ??

I used to know a girl .....
Kind .....
Caring .....

Guess you somehow lost that characteristics ..... But why ??

People do change ..... Its only human .....

But i really wish for everyone out there to change for the better , keep the good qualities of yourself and try to change those of which are unpleasent ..... We all need to change , change for the better ..... Hope the world hears my wish .....

Guess in your heart you do not need this useless guardian angel any more ..... If so , i'll be leaving than .....

Live your life as full as you can .....

my sad world. 6:39 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007

The Start Of A New Chapter In Your Life

Today , all ITE students needed to report to school ..... Well i tagged along but did not enter the area ..... I had a bad impression of ITE people before , but once i went into Sentosa , i began to think that they are not as bad as i thought in the begaining .....

ITE people are similar to poly or even JC people , some maybe as hard working or not , more ..... They too stand a chance in life , so do not look at them as hopeless people that would not make it in life , some do make it higher than than even JC people .....

There are always light and dark in this world .....
Thus there are also good and bad .....
So we gotta beware of them .....
Welcome the good into our lives .....
Shut the bad out of our gates .....

my sad world. 6:13 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Sigh , Sigh , Sigh

I do not know whats wrong with me today , i just cannot help but sighing .....

Someone once told me that when we sigh , we take away 1 year of my life ..... Isit true noone knows , but if its really true ..... My life would really be ending soon .....

I been thinking about something the past few days , after i seen the amine , Full Moon Wo sagashite ..... That though remains unanswered , that is if i were to die within one years time , how would i send it ? ..... I'm really scared , cause i cannot even answer such a simple question .....

Anyway i feel that noone in this world cares whether i live or die , its like i believe i wouldn't be missed or thought of at all ..... Do you know how scary is that thought ??!! .....

Maybe these days , i really need someone to talk to ..... Since my angel found a new person to care for , i been all alone in this world as i had been all these time ..... Just everyone is too busy now with their own thing that i'm left aside ..... And so i feel .....

my sad world. 11:22 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Me alone on the world

I try to treat people around me the best i can ..... But always only 1 sided , i can't take it anymore , i only end up hurt when i help them ..... How ironic ?

The truth is i'm really happy and satisfied when i help them but i really need them to appricate it ..... Guess i just dun feel that way .....

Makes me sadden .....

People keep telling me i'm a nice person ..... Maybe too nice ..... Isit true ??
Some say that people will do nice things to me in return cause i did for them , guess i seriously doubt it , i feel i do not belong in tis world , that i should leave this world .....

Goodness would not be return to you , so beware of what things u do for others .....

my sad world. 11:37 AM

Sunday, April 8, 2007

Guess you moved on 1st

You always told me to move on with you , means that if you moved on , i would too .....
Guess you moved on 1st ..... Good for you !! .....
You'll have my blessings ..... Guess thats why you moved on so fast , thats why you weren't sad as long i expected .....

JIA YOU !!! .....

Guess now i stand infront of the world alone .....
Sad but happy , i wonder why .....

my sad world. 8:37 PM

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Eternal Love Unsaid

I just finish seeing a very sad amination ..... Full Moon Wo Sagashite ..... Its about a young girl about to die within 1 years time due to throat cance ..... She meets two Shimigami to guide her to her end ..... I'll not say the whole story , i'll fast forward to the end ..... In the end she didnt die , she went to surgery and was cured ..... However the two guidians were punished for editing her destiny to let her live .....

Why does love so blind ? ..... By love , many people gave their life , why ? .....

Many people tell me that you became an adult when you learn how to sacrifice ..... But i believe that we are grown up when we know how to love ..... Do you agree ?

But get back to the story ..... What if you were in love with someone you cannot love ? ..... How would u feel ? .....

I really would like to be the wind ..... Because , i would always be there to comfort the people who i love even without them knowing ..... So remember whenever u feel the gentleness of the wind , remember you are never alone cause i'll be there right by yourside .....

You always ask me to move on ..... I know i should , but yet i'm trying my best to do so for the past 1 year ..... Do u know how hard is it for me ?! Guess you would never know , cause you do not even choose to see it .....

my sad world. 3:38 PM

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Trying so hard to mending your broken heart wit a shatered heart

You keep teling me about "him" , how you can ever move on , that you can ever love again ..... I know how you feel , i know you will be able to move on , i have faith in u to move on with your life ..... You were always stronger than me , the truth is after more than 1 year - i'm still waiting for my angel to return to my sky ..... Just she wouldn't come back as she is in another's arms , i believe she is most happy there , anyways that guy has the strenght to protect her , i'm a weakling .....

Somehow i feel that she treasures other partners much more than me , taking my actions for granted ..... Just i never did let myself down and continue with my duty to take care of her even till today , guess i'm forever waiting for sth most impossible to happen .....

Love is granted to those who are worthy ..... I was never , but you are ..... So do not give up on love so easy , you still have a fighting chance .....

You are likely not to read this posting ..... But just to let you know , you are never alone on this earth , you still have me ..... I promised not to leave , guess i'm keeping that promise ..... Keep holding to your dreams and never let anything take them away from you .....

JIA YOU !!!! All for love

my sad world. 10:42 PM

Family
My brother is the most respected or feared person in the family ..... My parents do not dare to check up on him if he goes out too late , cause he will only get fustrated and scolds them ..... He is so selfish that he keep his things to himself and takes others things ..... Anyway his more handsome and much smarter than me so i wouldn't blame anyone to see him as a better person than me .....
My sister is the pampered one in the family ..... Maybe because of her age ( the smallest in the family ) ..... She is super pretty , so maybe the reason people lke her .....
My parents always think that my friends are the worse type ..... Always check on me and scolds me ..... Maybe they are venting their anger on me cause i do not really fight back due to the reason i do not like to fight for things ..... In my family i'm the worse , sigh .....

Love
The one thing i really count on is a life partner to lay on ..... Cause i'm the type of person who only tell my feelings to a person that hold a place in my heart ..... However , that was not to be ..... Cause she left me for the same guy three times .....

Firends
Not saying all my friends ..... Just due to i'm just too soft hearted , some of them like to take me for granted .....

This is my life
Many people think my life is so good and perfect ..... Will this is the truth ..... Isit really good ?

my sad world. 12:09 AM

Blog Introduction
"Sorrowful Hope"
Do you feel that hope is sorrowful ? Well i do

Hope is a cheerful feeling to have I have to admit myself . But hope turns dark when we are grasping on to something that cannot happen or that is impossible .

In some point in our life , we will aim for something we cannot get . It maybe small or big , simple or complex .

People always say that we can loose everything but hope . Once hope is lost , the battle has lost < means everything we worked so hard for and that future is gone >

But is hope really that worth , especially when we cannot obtain it ? Or should it be given up ?

True Feelings
I'm a faithful and loyal guy ....
However if u did sth wrong,
I'LL remember it 4EVA

AIMS in my life
1. I not going to be EMO no more !! (Partly Achieved)

2. I'm going to be the best friend to my friends !! (Forever A Task)

3. Live By this quote : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

4. Lose weight

5. Know what i want in life, Occupation?

~~6. GPA at least a 3 at the end of poly life (possible but hard)~~ IMPOSSIBLE

7. Read Newspaper everyday?
^-^

Me
Gener : Male
DOB : 15th December 1989
Status : Single
Country : Singapore ( SG )
Primary School : SHPS
Secondary School : SHSS
Teritary Education : TP

Likes :
Cool N Windy Places
Going Out With Frens
Slacking
Playing Games
LOVES Piano Songs ^^

Dislikes :
Working
BackStabers / Liers
Getting Caught In The Middle
Ppl Who Nv Reply Msges
Ppl Who PS, Without Reason
Ppl That Use Others

Recomemded Jap Aminations
Full Moon Wo Sagashite
DN Angel
Lamune
Asatte No Houkou
Canvas
Nagasarete Airantou
Shaman King
Pita Ten
My Wife is a High School Girl
Tsuyokiss
Gakuen Alice
Sumomomo Momomo
Otogi Jushi Akazukin TV
Tokimeki Memorial ~Only Love~
Karin
Kamichama Karin
Hayate no Gotoku!
Rozen Maiden & Rozen Maiden Traumend
Maburaho
Love Hina
Makai Senki Disgaea
Ai Yori Aoshi
Gundam Seed/Destiny
Clannad
Shinigami no Ballad
H2O ~Footprints in the Sand~
Gift Eternal Rainbow
Shugo Chara!

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